Lifes tough but beautiful at the same time

I feel absolute with my decision but i feel i had hurt some people with my decisions. I dont know what the right thing to do. I feel i need to stay strong and have pride. I was hurt too that is why i had a final decision on ending my passion of volleyball. It was personal reasons but at the same time it was my studies getting in the way; however, I felt God was leading me to his path in which I felt i didnt want to follow before. My passions is Nursing. My focus and goal is to impact other people and encourage them through their journey of life, its very hard when someone doesnt accept who you are, but i learned to stay strong and not let others control my decision. they should be happy for me right? maybe a part of me theres something wrong. something that i may not be doing right as a christian;therefore, making me a hypocrite. Im being to selfish and as a student of christ i should be serving others and respecting them. but when someone had hurt you and degrade your passion and love for something its hard to respect them. especially when you feel you had a hard time. it all might be misunderstanding. idk but God has the answers to everything. In servant leadership class, the people inspired me and the principle and teacher told us that we are like a group of birds instinctively going as a group and staying as a group because of insecurity and wanting to protect ouselfs from being alone and denied by. i feel as leaders and servants we should be a individual instead of a flock of pigeons coming after food at the same time in the same place, fighting for something thats not worth living for but at the same time important to survive in this cold world. Society brings us into thinking we need to stay in the culture, be part of a group. but when i think about this God only care about you being an indivual making a difference sacrificing your time and self to be and ecnoureage others through their hard times and their loneliness. This year my goal is to impact others and to encourage their time on earth and tell them that lifes preceious; hwoever, hard at the same time. We must stand firm and strong and trust in the lord for He knows everything about us. I want Him to Lead me and direct me wherever I go. and not let me go alone into a path that ends up in troubles and struggles. Also people are so different. human kinds have different thinking and traits. Its fustrating; hwoever, i need to learn how to be patient in people and how to be a better listener and a more understanding.